Life is a mess, or maybe I think so. I watched "Wake Up Sid" today. Its a movie with a good message. I even cried while watching one particular scene. The moment when a child hands over first salary to parents is heart warming. How I wish it could be me, months earlier...
I am just over with the second last semester of engineering and about 15 days away from my last. This is the moment I always feared. Basically, in my seventh semester I screwed up my brilliantly happy life. In the beginning of my fourth and final year of college life, I had everything I could have hoped for- four enviable work positions(the fourth one came a little into the seventh sem), remarkable reputation in the college as THE anchor, speaker and university debater and a boyfriend who loved me. I couldn't have asked for more! Tragedy is, I did.
A random post which I just shared on my Facebook wall reads: "Life is what happens to us while we are busy making other plans". Its funny how we always reveal so much about our lives to complete strangers through random media while we are afraid of confronting ourselves about the burning issues which are really haunting our conscience. In my case, life always intervened whenever I became over ambitious, or in other words, dared to dream too big and strived with every cell in my body to turn it into a reality. Life had a knack of shattering my dreams like a castle of glass...every single time. Being the stubborn, overly optimistic LEO that I am, I never gave up! Its a fight till the end and life knows that fact only too well. I am, after all, a born rebel, rather a 'fighter' as my Dad puts it. The irreparable damage that life always did was to snatch away my confidence. I believe, the process of re-building lost confidence is called 'living'.
I am just over with the second last semester of engineering and about 15 days away from my last. This is the moment I always feared. Basically, in my seventh semester I screwed up my brilliantly happy life. In the beginning of my fourth and final year of college life, I had everything I could have hoped for- four enviable work positions(the fourth one came a little into the seventh sem), remarkable reputation in the college as THE anchor, speaker and university debater and a boyfriend who loved me. I couldn't have asked for more! Tragedy is, I did.
A random post which I just shared on my Facebook wall reads: "Life is what happens to us while we are busy making other plans". Its funny how we always reveal so much about our lives to complete strangers through random media while we are afraid of confronting ourselves about the burning issues which are really haunting our conscience. In my case, life always intervened whenever I became over ambitious, or in other words, dared to dream too big and strived with every cell in my body to turn it into a reality. Life had a knack of shattering my dreams like a castle of glass...every single time. Being the stubborn, overly optimistic LEO that I am, I never gave up! Its a fight till the end and life knows that fact only too well. I am, after all, a born rebel, rather a 'fighter' as my Dad puts it. The irreparable damage that life always did was to snatch away my confidence. I believe, the process of re-building lost confidence is called 'living'.
