And I Win!

I am happy. The long days of struggle are over and natural order is restored. The power struggles of the past were undoubtedly ruled in my favour. I win.

Whatever you just read is not even close to truth. Yes, I won a petty war but who’s the happy character here? It is my ego. The war of power is always fought between two groups of eager control freaks with inflated egos. I might have won this battle but in my heart, my soul has lost a big fight today. When you argue with a fool, you prove that you are no different. It is the same with my ego hassle. I ended up being the same ego-maniac I was fighting against. Was it worth it? Absolutely not!

This simple sequence of incidents makes me wonder if I will always be like this. Life will, no doubt throw my way many more such confrontations with less evolved souls. Does that mean I should also dip in order to come down to their level just to prove my point? I hardly think so. My soul says I am bigger than this and that I shouldn’t have let that entity called “ego” rule my head in the first place. When a bull blocks your way, you don’t negotiate, you simply take a different path. I should have been the mature one here and let them take what they call “power” and live with it. This would have served two purposes: First, I would have followed my heart and not entered the war and Second, it would have made my opponent’s wish come true. Now, the second part here is not about me being a good person and wanting my opponent’s happiness. Fact is our grandest wishes are also our worst nightmares; we just don’t know it. Inherently, we are all afraid of having our wishes come true. They are called “wishes” for a reason. Sooner than later, they turn against us. “Be careful what you wish for” is an old but very valid saying. Actually, we never know what is good for us. We are all just guessing. This makes us passengers in the same caravan and reinstates the philosophy that we are all part of one, big family: ‘Vasudhev Kutumbakam’