A Serious Mental Disease

Love that dies,
Writhing in pain
Of my lonesome existence
Of your pretense
The hatred that nulls under the surface
Lost wings
Lost trails
Of heaven and hell
Within our heads
True beauty of loss
Acceptance of anguish
Stars of the sky
Take the mighty fall
Existential dread
Captivating paths
Starry nights
Walks into the wilderness
Path to obscurity
Sense of an ending
Finding one's way back
Then cutting off again
Getting lost and never be found again
Far away from the madding crowd
Rum Diaries and vodka Islands
Crushed hearts and split personalities
Abhorrent weather of my heart
Hurt I felt but never expressed
All the words left unsaid
Crazy pursuit of perfection
Adamance for materialistic success
Running after a mirage
Falling down once, getting up twice
Of cryptic messages and marathons into abyss
Clouds of doubt over pessimism of love
Drenched in sighs
The nights of lovers
Keeping it together for the sake of sanity
Cocaine lines are drugs of choice
Love is my poison
Your voice my kryptonite
Kill me once or kill me twice
Rip apart my bleeding heart
From my seething chest
Pull me apart
And put me back together
You are my heaven
Your pain, my hell
Dying this death of eternal shame
The guilty pleasure of falling from top of a building
Ending the crusade of life
Hanging up the boots,
My time has come
I see my spirit soaring high
In death, at least, I m free to be
Free to fly above the rest
Give me peace,
Let me die once and for all
I leave behind no legacy
No fame or dime
I m all you had, I am all I had
And now, I am gone